Incidents in the life of.....

Monday, April 24, 2006

My life

Wow, such much has gone on in my life in the past few weeks. Let's start with school.
I stopped going to that class that kept leaving me drained day in and day out. I just couldn't take it anymore. Too much came with the class. The reading material didn't interest me. The professor was a total and complete ASS. Man, I couldn't stand that man or sit him for that matter. I got tired of hearing those racist comments. The last time I went, he made a comment about my Alma Mater and I just didn't care to hear it. I just got tired of it. I know it shows me as weak, but I really don't care. I feel so much better. The only regret I have is that I didn't do it earlier. That way I wouldn't have an F.
I went through a deep bout (sp) of depression. I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't find happiness in anything. It seemed like everything around me was falling apart. I knew I should have just prayed and trusted in God, but Satan was pulling at me. I stopped praying. I stopped reading the Bible. I kept going to church, but my spirit wasn't there, only my body. I wasn't moved. Then the Sunday before Easter, I cried my last tear. I felt so good. Rev. Pickette was preaching about letting God handle things and it seemed like he was talking directly to me. I kept trying to fight the tears, but they kept coming. So cathartic. That night, I prayed again. I read again. I renewed my faith in God. I don't think I lost it, but I just know I wasn't right. I couldn't get right either. Everything is good now though.
The kids take the state tests next week. This week is supposed to be a spirit week to try to boost morale. I can't recall exactly what we are doing for them, but there will be a step show Friday. I don't know where I will be working next year. I kind of want to go back to the school I was at last year. I took the girls on the dance team to lunch the Friday before Easter. We had a nice little time. They made me late for my hair appointment, but we had fun. I missed those girls. Mrs. Allen and I went to dinner at Cozumel's one day. We had so much fun. I miss her, too. I guess now I need to go somewhere with Shannon and Marcus. I see RWilliams all the time.
I got to see my line sisters this weekend. My neos deservingly won the step show. They were so cute and their steps were awesome. The Deltas gave them a run for their money, but they just couldn't compete. I got to see one of my line sisters that I thought I had just lost it for, but seeing her made me realize how much I love her. I still think she did something shiesty, but she's my ls so I will give her the benefit of the doubt.
Ray Nagin came out of the primaries. He is running against the Lt. Gov, Mitch Landreui. I don't understand why someone would step down as Lt. Gov. to become major. My four thinks its bc he is trying to get his hand in the money that will be used to rebuild NOLA. She's probably right. Nagin oftentimes but his foot in his mouth, but I want him to win the election. I don't have a legit reason. At first it was because of the current condition of NOLA. I don't think they need a change of leadership at such a crucial point in rebuilding, esp. since hurricane season is upon them. However, when it was time to elect a pres., one of the reasons I didn't vote for Bush is because I didn't think he could get us out of the "situation" with Iraq. I was right. I think if Nagin can make changes in NOLA. I just think he needs to let go of the race issues.
The first thing I was going to talk about was my family, but I changed my mind. My hair is still pressed. I purchased an electric straightening comb because as the heat rises, my hair swells. It gets so puffy. I think I will cut it off for my birthday. It will be gone by the end of September for sure because that will give me a way to see how much my hair has grown in a year.
I think that's enough for now. I'm going to keep this thing updated. I just had to come out of my depression.

Posted by Nik :: 4/24/2006 :: 3 Comments: