Incidents in the life of.....
Monday, February 06, 2006
Burdens
I went home this weekend for the second time since Jan. 3. I get so bored and start feeling so unhappy. I don't know why. Maybe it is my pessimism kicking in, but I just don't wanna be here. I fell asleep in class again today. I did participate in the discussion though because I need those points. I got my grade on my discussion leading today. He gave me really good feedback, but I got a B+. I must admit my feelings were a little bit hurt, but I can deal. I don't know what I made on that paper. I'm in no hurry to get it back because I don't think it's good. Actually, I do think it's good, but I don't know what exactly he is looking for. It was only supposed to be one page, but I had to make some adjustments because I had too much to say. In my 430 class, only two people showed up. My professor was pretty pissed, but he went on with class anyway. He ordered us pizza, too. I ate it even though it wasn't on my diet. Class was actually better with just the two of us. There were originally seven people enrolled in the class, but one girl didn't show up last week or this week, so she probably dropped the class. There was another guy in the class. I gave him my number; he called me Saturday to tell me that he dropped the class. So, that I know of, there are only five people enrolled in the class. That can be both good and bad. It's good because you can actually develop a personal relationship with the professor and classmates. It's bad because the professor has more time to focus on each paper.
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Yesterday, Pastor was talking about burdens. He was reading from Galations (maybe Ephesians). The point was that burdens are meant to be handled one of three ways: beared, shouldered, or shed. Some things we just have to deal with (bear). These will only make us stronger in the end. Some things you need help with (shouldered by others). We weren't designed to handle everything on our own. That's why we have friends and family. Other issues are just meant to shed. They aren't glorifying God or helping you. You jus have to let those things go. Anyway, while he was talking, I started thinking about Rashad. I haven't heard anything good about that boy in a nice minute. He is really going through right now (burdens he needs to shed). I am hoping I can talk to him and maybe later talk with him. Right now, he needs someone to help him. I realize that I cannot fix his problem, but maybe I can tell him something that will make him want to shed that burden.
I don't know. I just have to realize that God is working on me and what simple things I am going through will pass. I'm still trying to be optimistic, but I haven't been doing a good job lately. I'm still trying though and I know God is going to take me where he wants me to be.
I've been thinking about Blair, too. Maybe it's because his birthday was Saturday. I really want him to be blessed.
Posted by Nik ::
2/06/2006 ::
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