Incidents in the life of.....

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Idle Chatter

I had a good day today. I finally purchased my books for class. I had to buy 12 books! Yay! I am only excited bc I bought books. I'm not particulary excited about the books though bc they are by white people. This is not my racism kicking in; I just prefer to read books by African American writers. That's why I need to hurry up and get into an Africana studies program. I got a check for tutoring today and I was totally not expecting it. It wasn't even $100, but it was money I hadn't counted on. I needed that because I really wanna go home Saturday. I have been pinching off my savings account.
Anyway, I had a wonderful time this weekend. Saturday, I went to a party at this nice little place. We used to have our AKA parties there in undergrad and I promise it is a totally different environment. Maybe people smoked at our parties, but I don't recall. I really doubt it. Anyway, the place was "thick." People were everywhere. LJ and I really had a good time. I even got in a strut or two. :)
Afterwards, we went to IHOP. We weren't even hungry. It just seemed like the right thing to do. She ended up spending the night with me bc it was about 3 when we finally arrived home. Home? Did I just say that?
Saturday, I got up and drove to Memphis. My best friend and I ran errands for the party that couldn't afford to have. It turned out to be quite nice until she went Psycho Betty on everyone, including me. We resolved it though. The plan was to go see Memoirs of a Geisha, but we never made it. We lounged all day Sunday. What a waste? Monday, we decided to go on a diet. We are both a little too big. (I buy darn 14s.) The diet plan is for three months, but its not healthy. The first week you are only supposed to have juice and water. The next week, you add fruits. Then add veggies; then add meats. Then you are to go back to the juices and start over. That will not work for me. I had juice and water all day yesterday and until 9 o'clock tonight. I literally had hunger pains. My stomach was in knots. At about 8, I went to Wally World and bought salads and fruits. That should still help me to lose wieght and its healthier.
I finally found the stregnth to let go of those ex bfs. It has been quite interesting. Around this time of night, I find myself wanting to pick up the phone and call one or two of them, but I don't. I really feel like it's too much baggage. Anyway, if someone treats you badly, you shouldn't want to be their friend. I recently told someone that we try to keep people in our lives for a lifetime when they are only meant to be there for a season or a reason. I find myself guilty of that. So, I am trying to learn from these people who will eventually leave my life. I am also trying to figure out if they are lifetime, reason, or season people. Once I figure it out, I am going to try to accept it as is. I have a friend who is a season friend, but for some reason we still converse. We have nothing to talk about. When we are on the phone, all there is is dead air. Then when in person, it's just idle chatter. I need to let go of that relationship too. I have another friend who has absolutely nothing to talk about but sex. Personally, I think sex is quite interesting conversation, but not at all times. When I change the subject, she changes it right back. Maybe she is going through something right now. I don't know.
Oh yeah, I bought some more Proactive. I don't know why I keep buying that stuff. It really keeps my face clear, but it doesn't remove the blemishes. Well, that's why I keep buying it. My face doesn't break out any more. But when I see the commercials, the people on the commercials have perfect skin. Even their dark spots disappear. Maybe it will be better this time bc I bought the skin lightening lotion. I'm actually a bit scared to use it bc I don't want to look bleached or have light spots. I just want even skin.
That's enough. I'm out.

Posted by Nik :: 1/17/2006 :: 3 Comments: