Incidents in the life of.....

Friday, November 11, 2005

TA-DA, I'M HEA!

WAHunter says I need to post, so here goes.......

What have I been up lately? Everything and nothing. I still have not enrolled in school, though I have been accepted and plan on going in January. I am going to take two classes, hopefully I can find a special topics on an African American writer. One of the main reasons I want to go to school so bad right now is because I have no friends here. Well, that's not true. I have no one to go to lunch with and discuss everything under the sun. I miss that. When I was at Tougaloo, my friends and I ate out at least twice a week. I don't have that anymore. I need some friends friends. Maybe I will find someone to date, but I really just want a friend around. I have a close friend here, but she is married and doing the couple thing. There is another ex-friend, but sometimes I just don't want to be bothered with her. I need a home girl.

Next......I went through a rough few weeks with this one particular person, for absolutely no reason. I got all giddy, like a school girl with a crush and it didn't work the way I wanted it to. Everything happens for a reason. I just hate that this happened, whatever the reason behind it may be. I really liked this fella. I told somebody I think he is my soul mate. (I have told all my friends that since I was 15.) She replied, I don't think he is your soul mate, just the closest person to your soul. That was different. Something to think about. I promise I use to be able to see myself with this boy, carrying his babies, taking vacations, all dat. He is the only one I have ever been psycho over. I mean really psycho, ghetto girl, VCarter-psycho over. I don't know; it's just something about him.

OK....I am working on my walk with the Lord. I find myself praying and reading more. I still trouble with "Thy will be done" because I just want to pray for what I want. I know God has a plan and what I want might not be what I need, but I have trouble accepting that. Yet, I still pray that His will be done. I just also have to pray that I have stregnth to accept it and handle it. I guess I should pray the prayer of serenity. I had to pray about the afore mentioned guy. I had to pray about this school thing too because I don't know if He wants me to go to school right now. I hope so.

Change......I am really going to do this natural thing. I hadn't had a perm since September and my hair is THIIIIIICK, especially in the middle. I am going home tomorrow to get my hair microed. My butt is going to hurt. I am going to take a book home, though I don't have a good one to read. I told everyone I want books for Christmas since Katrina got all mine. I'm ready. I can do it. I'm so excited. I have been telling everybody. I know they think I'm crazy. All of my friends, except KHallmon, told me not to do it. VMH says go ahead, but I know she doubts my stregnth. She says I'm going to miss my 'shAKAble' hair. I told her I hadn't had hair like that since graduation. Every guy I have ever dated except TYJ told me don't do it. I'm gone do it. I just hope its cute.

Posted by Nik :: 11/11/2005 :: 1 Comments: