Wednesday, February 18, 2004

Bag Lady

I went to the forum I guess a month ago. It made me rethink a lot of issues. So I changed a few of the things I didn't like. A few minutes ago, someone says "That Bag Lady forum really fucked you up." WTH? I haven't really noticed a difference. I think I need to work on a lot of things, but I don't think I've really changed. Writing in this blog made me realize I am pessimistic and self-centered. I don't really like being a pessimist, but that is just another bag I carry. I don't know if being self-centered bothers me, mainly because I am not sure.
Anyway, if I have changed, I doubt that it is for the worse. Maybe I am a bit more cynical, but how many times did have to get hurt to start believing that not everyone is good? I think I'm doing better because I am no longer looking at things through rose colored glasses. I am a bit on the simpleminded side, but that's cool. I have always been simple, doesn't bother me. I have been called selfish too. I wish I wouldn't give off that vibe. I would change it if I could, but I just don't see selfishness in my mirror. I see flaws, but that's not one of them.
I like when Erykah says Pack Light too Hope. That's what I am trying to do. I am ridding myself of one bag at a time. That comment threw me.
Posted by Nik :: 2/18/2004 :: 0 Comments:

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