Incidents in the life of.....

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

RANDOM THOUGHTS

I got a reality check last night. I was too shocked. I don't know why though. I guess I had created this "statue" in my mind and wanted so desperately to hold on to it. The funny thing is, I knew it was going to happen. It was nothing out of the ordinary. Actually, it's one of those things that are supposed to happen. Problem is, I don't know what to do. It changes nothing, but it changes everything. I don't really know how to explain it, and I don't want to think about it.
In Afram Politics I got an answer to "Why Africans?" My classmates and I came up with an array of answers: They were the most civilized and advanced. They were resilient. They adjust to any given situation. Whites felt threatened by their presence. There were a few others, but I cannot think of them now. Anyway, none of them were exactly satisfying. They were all good reasons, but to me that's not enough. I really just do not understand why Europeans were so..... domineering, for lack of a better term.
We are doing this trial to The Merchant of Venice today. I don't really feel like it, but I will, mainly because I don't want to disappoint Dr. Gilmer.
The cardiovascular forum is tonight. I have a night session with TAMS from 5-8, but I'm going to have leave at 7 to make it to the forum. I'm not on the Pretty Parlor committee, but I am excited about that. The party is coming up. The fliers just went up this morning and people are complaining about the price already. They are high, but Mikeal's is expensive. Anyway, those who want to come will come. It's just that simple.
I promise to do at least five pages of my senior paper tonight. That shouldn't be hard. Actually, it's not. I just have to find the will to do it.
I'm still going strong with the "turn it off theory." My "ex-boyfriend bag" is empty.

Posted by Nik :: 2/10/2004 :: 0 Comments: