Tuesday, February 17, 2004

WHOA

One of my friends is having the same problem I am having. The only difference is, I am handling it way better than she is. So just imagine what she is doing. Anyway, as I talked to her about it and told her what I think she should do, I realized that I am not doing it myself. I need to stop and explore Ashley jsut as she needs to explore herself. It seems like I go from one loser to the next. WTH? On the outside, they just have all of these great attributes, then you get to know them and they are total jerks. Yet we stay. Someone told me it is because we are women. That's not it. I've seen women leave, just not a lot of them. Anyway, we agreed to go an entire week without dealing with them. I know a week doesn't seem like long, but it's a start. Weeks turn into months and months into years. Before you know, you don't even think about them. It's like God gave me stregnth to walk away from the biggest asshole I have ever met in my life and I just walked into a situation that is the same but different, different people, same destination. It sucks. I am going to do better. RR said she would pray for me. I need it. After I get passed this, I am going to leave men alone, not forever, but long enough for me to explore me. I'm going to do everything I told her to do. It's going to be hard, but that's cool. I can handle. I'm handling this situation with Asshole. It getrs hard sometimes, but I am handling it. I'm doing good too.
Posted by Nik :: 2/17/2004 :: 0 Comments:

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