Incidents in the life of.....

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Funny how situations change

Wow! I finally took the time out to relax in front of the computer. I haven't done this in forever.....
I'm really not in the mood to talk about myself because work and sorority life keeps me superbusy. I guess I'll talk about my friends...
Let's start with Del-Teen....I haven't talked to her in forever and I actually miss her. She's working really hard to finish this master's program and I am so proud of her.

Darkie.....I'm pissed with her at the moment, but I guess that is to be expected. Sometimes I wonder why we are even friends. You know how sometimes you just don't like certain people. She's one of those people.

Pimp is really turning in her playa cards and I must admit that I don't want her to. Well, actually, I don't want her to turn them in for him. He's a loser and I don't like him. Funny thing is, I am sure she's told him. I talked to her today about that dress. I need to send in my measurements, but I am too embarrassed. My ass is fat, PHAT, but FAT.

Well, maybe I do want to talk about myself....I am tired of being single. I want a boyfriend. I want to come home to someone, someone to ask me about my day and really want to hear it. I want to talk to someone about my life decisions, though I am stubborn and probably wouldn't listen. I want someone to sit at my kids' games with me. I want to buy Christmas gifts for someone. I want someone to draw my bath. I want someone to send me flowers. I want someone to call and say "Let's go to Wal-Mart." I just want the comforts of being in a relationship.

I think this is being spurred by all of these weddings around me. I was in a wedding in Sept. One of my friends in getting married in March. I am in another wedding in June. Perhaps that is where all of this is coming from.

The older I get, the more open-minded I become. I used to pride myself on the fact that all of my friends are just like me. That was my naivete. Now I am proud that I am willing to embrace those traits that people possess that are the total opposite of me. I guess you could say I am growing. One of the things at which I try really hard is being a good friend. I like to think that I would never turn my back on my friend unless she or he hurt me. As of late, I am really starting to believe that. People are different. It's not for me to judge. The only thing I have to do is accept it or walk away. I've learned that good friends are sparce these days, so I have to do my best to hold on to them. I guess they were put in my life to make me more open-minded.

I have so much to say, as usual, but I don't have time, as usual.

Clarity and Confusion

Posted by Nik :: 12/06/2007 :: 1 Comments: