Incidents in the life of.....

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Hola!

Every now and again, I come through here, post, promise to continue, and never keep the promise. I guess I have to spend this time just playing mini-ketchup! ;)

The past year has proved interesting. I'm in the midst of starting my second year as a Texas educator and I am excited. Most of the enthusiam stems from the fact that this is the first job that I will have worked for two years. I seem to lack stability and maybe, possibly, even run from it. I can't really find anywhere I just want to plant my feet. I love it here but I am 99.9% positive that I will move within the next year or two.

I re-read a few of my old posts and am elated to say that I have yet to lose that person that I was so worried about. He is still in my life, though distant. He's working and taking care of his fam. He's manning up and I'm proud. I love that boy so much. I don't know how long this will last, but I have learned to live in the moment and accept happiness when I get it.

My love life is complicated. There is this guy in my life who I think is finally removed, but I am not certain. It's funny how we know something is not good for us, but we don't walk away. I'd been there before and honestly thought I wouldn't put myself in that situation again, but I did. This one was worse than the first one. I am grateful for the first situation because had I never experienced it, I probably wouldn't know how to leave well enough alone. I allowed myself to get put into a horrible situation and did something I probably shouldn't have, but oh well. I'm ok with that. Sometimes we make the wrong decisions for the right reason. I have to be careful though and leave vengence to the Lord because sometimes I want to do serious bodily harm to him. Pray for me about that one!

I don't know where I am headed as far as education. The plan at the moment is to go to UT and get a masters (maybe Ph.D.) in African American studies. We shall see how that pans out. Law school is 90% out of my mind. Maybe one day that desire will resurface. Only God knows.

I feel like I should write about something important in the world, like the 08 election or the bridge collapse or the murder of those Delaware State students, but I am feeling self-centered right now. As I type this, all I can hear is "You are a careless writer." You know, that bothers me. When I am writing for pleasure, I am careless. So what. If this was a paper that had to be turned in and graded, I would step up the vocab, check the grammar and mechanics, and change some awkward wording. But, (Yes, I started the sentence with but) it's not. So what does it matter. All that matters is that I type what I honestly feel. If it really bothers you, stop reading my damn journal.

Whew, now that that's out of the way....I need to check my myspace and facebook accounts. No that's what I want to do. I need to go to bed because I have to fly home tomorrow. It feels good to call somewhere other than your birthplace home. Yeah, I fly HOME tomorrow. I get to lie in my bed and watch TV. I get to walk around in my undies and drink water from the jug! I get to sleep on the couch and ignore the knocks at the door. Yep, I am going home tomorrow!

Posted by Nik :: 8/12/2007 :: 0 Comments: