Tuesday, June 27, 2006

quick vent

i feel like screeming i just drove 30 miles to meet my father and he talked to me for about 7 minutes thats not the whole problem though i told him where i was in houston and he gave me directions i had to call him back bc the exit that he said was first was not when he answered, he responds i dont know where you are you are on the other side of town thats too far im sorry baby didnt know you were way over there so i turn around and start driving back to the house bc obviously whereever he is is too far after i pass two exits he tells me to turn around and meet him somewhere else so im driving and driving he keeps calling my phone talking about nothing trying to figure our where i am and i growing more aggravated by the minute because not only am i wasting gas and minutes, i was in the middle of pressing my hair and i look crazy with the top of my hair in a supernappy ponytail and the back as straight and pretty godforbid i have to stop and ask for directions because we all know i am bad with them then on the way back traffic was HEAVY and my brother wanted to go to the barbershop the only problem is he doesnt know where any are so we are driving and driving searching and searching with no luck but i did find somewhere to get my toes done for this weekend we finally found one but no i am beat tired i am about to lay down and relax then finish this light press i am doing on my hair and let my cousin braid it some kind of way she didnt want to braid it in its natural state so i have to press it lightly to make it easier to manage

peace and blessings
Posted by Nik :: 6/27/2006 :: 1 Comments:

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Thursday, June 22, 2006

Nothing

The past week has been pretty good. I turned all my stuff in for school today. I almost panicked, but then I remembered that God sent me here. So I relaxed.
I am 24 now! My birthday kinda started slow, then I got a phone call and Tory was outside. I would go into detail about Tory, but he's not important. I did, however, spend a good part of my day with him. We went to Olive Garden and I ordered something with asiago cheese and shrimp. It was really good. Then they brought me chocolate cake and sang happy birthday in Italian. Being that I don't speak Italiain, I don't know what the hell they were saying! Then we went bowling. Yes, in the middle of the day! Of course I didn't win, but I did bowl over 100! Tory bowls in tournaments so I really didn't think I would win. I just thought it would be fun and it was. It gave me an opportunity to talk shit. After that, I went home and washed my car. I was supposed to be going to the movies with one of my cousins, but we just rented movies and talked. By the time, the movie was over, I was sleep. I knew I wasn't going to make it. We did finish that cake from Olive Garden though. That was basically it for the birthday but I really enjoyed myself.
I am back in Houston and still loving it. I wish I could tell some of the interesting things I am doing, but I'm not doing anything. I just like being here. Oh, I got lost today! I was trying to take a different route home from school. It worked until I missed my exit. By the time I saw it, it was too late. I just took the closest exit and made a u-turn. Well, I missed it again. This time, I didn't see anywhere to turn around so I drove around for a minute. I finally turned around and caught my exit. No biggie! I was kinda excited. Who knows? I get excited over first times. This was the first time I got lost for real. I was excited when I got my first ticket, too! I don't know. I guess I have issues!
I wish I had more to talk about, but I don't.
Holla Black!

Posted by Nik :: 6/22/2006 :: 6 Comments:

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

JOB HUNTIN PART II

I went on two interviews today, one at 9 and one at 11. Last night, I prayed for the one at 11. I got to the nine o'clock interview about 20 minutes early and the principal interviewed me immediately. I think I was finished by like 910. I don't know the area so I didn't want to go too far off. I saw a Macdonald's about a quarter mile away from the school, so I went to get breakfast. I wasn't even hungry, I just needed something to do to pass the time. I stayed in that McDonald's until 10, thinking and people watching. I just didn't have anything to do. I arrived at the second school at 1020. I was just sitting there, talking on the phone when my brother called and told me one of my exboyfriend's father passed. Man, that was a blow. I loved that man. The last time I saw him, he begged me to call his son. I didn't. But about a month ago, I became really worried about him and have tried to see him everytime I went home. Maybe I should have been worried about his dad instead of him. I guess I will finally see him at the funeral because I definitely going home.

OK, that was my ADD. Back to the job hunt. So anyway, I finally went into the building. I completed a profile sheet and introduced myself to the assistant principal, whom I immediately liked. I went into her office and realized why I liked her...she's a soror. So I talked to her, answered her questions, and feel confident that I am going to get the job. The lady gave me her number and a number to call for certification. So I left there and went directly to a certification office. The man there told me that because of my gpa and number of English and Education hours I had, I probably wouldn't have to take too many classe. So now I have to complete the application for enrollment into the program there. It requires three references, an essay, and something else, can't recall at the moment. I am sure I am going to get that job that I interviewed for at 11. The school must be a good school because they have an International Baccalaureate (IB) program. I have another interview at 9 tomorrow. I'm going, but I'm really not tripping about it.

So that's it. I'll be moving soon, don't know when. I need to send in a letter of resignation from TC.

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Tuesday, June 13, 2006

JOB HUNTIN

Aiight, ya'll. I hit the streets again today! My interview went well. The lady at HR told me that I will be hired in the district and told me to call five middle schools to set up interviews to see where I will be best suited. She then told me that if none of those work out to call her back and she will place in one of the high schools. I am praying that one of the middle schools work out because I do not want to go to an high school. I have applications to other districts, but I am claiming this one! I really don't feel llike posting, but I figured I would update the world (and keep a log so that when I look back, I'll know what was up).

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Monday, June 12, 2006

I's here!

Houston, we have lift off! I have arrived. It took me 6.5 hours to get here. I stopped twice, once to get money out of the ATM in Gulfport and once in Baton Rouge. While in Baton Rouge, I stopped at an Exxon to fill up, eat at Subway, and get a cappaccino. The praline was an added bonus! While I was in there, a little black boy was stealing for a white woman. I kinda got pissed. She was pointing out things and he was pocketing them. The lady that worked in the store pointed him out to another guy, who I am assuming was her boss. By the time she noticed him, he was walking out of the store. The manager(?) didn't seem to care. He didn't write down a tag number, try to stop the boy or the woman, nothing. What is the world coming to? A little (black) boy is stealing, stealing meaningless shit(juice and energy drinks), stealing for someone else (white woman), and the manager doesn't have a care in the world. I guess it ain't his shit, so oh well.
Anyway, so I finally made it after crossing numerous bridges. It was an easy drive, straight shot. I had to jump off 10 to get on 12 then back to 10. That was it, simple drive. I rode with Kanye for a while, then John Legend, then a mix CD. After that I rode with the radio and talked on the phone. My friends were pretty good about making sure that I knew they would talk to me if I got sleepy. I didn't leave until 6, so they were pretty worried. I wasn't. I was determined, destined to be here. I really believe God sent me here. I am going to great things here! I can feel it.
I am supposed to be getting dressed to meet this woman at 12 to go to her district, which is the second highest in the area and has 9 vacancies. I'm pretty excited about that. I just had to post right quick. I'll be back to post how it went, unless I start enjoying the town too late!

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Thursday, June 08, 2006

UPSET

WHO IS THIS MAN HOSTING ANDERSON COOPER 360? I'M ABOUT TO CHANGE THE CHANNEL IF I CAN'T SEE THE MAN WITH THE OCEAN IN HIS EYES!

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Wednesday, June 07, 2006

LEAVING

I am going to Houston Sunday! I'm pretty excited about that. I learned that Texas does not accept the Praxis and I will have to take their state test, but that's cool. They have a lot of programs designed to help you and they give you a year to pass it. I don't think I will have a problem getting a teaching job, but if I do, I will just do something else. I just don't want to be here anymore. I am 99.9% certain that I am leaving. It's about that time. It seems like my life is changing everyday. Each day something new happens and makes me evaluate my situations and thought process.
Today I had to evaluate my views on friendship and make sure I really believed what I said I did. I do. There are certain instances when we have to compromise because of our friends, but there are also certain principles, core principles that we have to hold steadfast and be unyeilding. For the past four months, maybe longer, I have been struggling with this one friend and her relationship with one of my ex boyfriends. I have tried diligently to understand her point of view, but I just cannot. I have tried to accept her decision and still hold to my beliefs, our opinions are so contradictory that it is impossible. I feel like if I continue the relationship with her, then I am ignoring what I believe in my heart is wrong. She feels like if she discontinues her relationship with him, she is ignoring what she thinks is wrong. Either way, something has to give. So I chose to give up the friendship. It may seem selfish, but for the life of me, I just don't understand and I firmly believe she is wrong. So I had to let it go. It hurts tremendously, but I have to do it because I really can't get over it. I think if you can't let go of something, you have to walk away from it because there will be constant reminders and constant problems that keep stemming from it. This goes for friendships and intimate relationships. Ok, I just had to get that out of my system. Now I am LEAVING that alone too.

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Monday, June 05, 2006

Life is good. I'm back to being optimistic. Life is looking up. God has something in store for me.

I am ready to cut my hair. I went to get it cut Tuesday, but my beautician wouldn't cut it. She said it's because it won't look the way I want it because it has been pressed out on a weekly basis for about two months. I told her to do it anyway, but she didn't. Instead, she rolled it on the gheri curl rollers and it is absolutely adorable. At first, I didn't like it, but when I pulled the curls out yesterday, I fell in love with it. It is just beautiful and extremely wild. I love it. I have gotten so many compliments. One of my cousins told me she didn't want me to ever press it again, so of course I was cheesing. When I got back to Jackson, two girls told me they liked it. That was a good thing because I was going to wash it out. I guess I will wear this look a little longer.

I am starting my job search in the morning. I really enjoyed working at BMS this year, but I think it's time to spread my wings. I think I have lived in Mississippi long enough. This year has solidified that I do not want to teach in Mississippi. I just kept running into problems. Friday put the icing on the cake. I sent some crucial documents to the state department and rather than them sending them to where they needed to go, they sent them back to me. The lady that they should have been sent to told me that if I could track it and prove that it was mailed to the wrong place, she would allow me to enter the program. I did that and called her back. Then she told me that there was nothing she could do for me this year. So I got pissed, but only briefly because I was thinking about moving anyway. That was just something else trying to get me to move out of Mississippi.

Anyway, I want to go to Houston. I talked to one of my cousins in Houston who is supposed to be talking to someone else on my behalf. I don't know how that will pan out, but I starting my research project this week. That's the task at hand so that I can go to Houston next week for interviews. I must say that I am extremely excited. I'm ready for a change of scenery. I don't think I can stay here any longer. I am losing my fire here. I need some new embers, a new spark. I think a new place will give me that. I'm not sure, but I am praying for guidance and nothing is in my head but Houston.

My parents had a anniversary party this weekend and it was absolutely beautiful. I didn't cry either! It was nice to hear other people speak on how my parents have inspired and helped them in ways big and small. It was nice to have so many family members around, too. Of course, that one aunt that gets on everyone's nerves did her job and pissed a few people off, but it was just beautiful. Everyone wore white linen suits and just looked so lovely. My parents truly love each other and it is so obvious in everything they do. My momma remarrying was one of my biggest blessings. My dad really loves my moma and raised my siblings and I as were his. He has never showed favoritism, ever. He is just a good man and I hope I marry someone just like him. I admire my mom's big heart the most. It seems like she has enough room for everybody in that little heart. My moma was/ is extremely strict and controlling, but she would give her last to someone in need. She would give someone else's last if she thought somebody needed it. She just has a big heart. I admire that so much. I remember growing up and my moma taking in all these strange people. I remember three kids living with us because something was wrong with their mama. My moma went out and bought those kids so many clothes. My sisters and brothers and I were so mad because she used to swear she was broke, but now I appreciate that. Those kids needed those clothes. The things we wanted were simple, had to be because we were blessed with more than enough. Then I remember when the twins came! We loved those girls, Shana and Alana. My moma spoiled the shit out of those girls. They were five when they first came. Then we took in their mom and my daddy was pissed, but my moma let her stay there anyway, with no job and not contributing in any way. That's just the type of person she is. I love that woman.

I'm sure that's not it, but those are the highlights of the past week.

OH YEAH....SCHOOL'S OUT FOR SUMMER!!!!!!!!!

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