Tuesday, March 28, 2006

I skipped class yesterday. I kinda feel bad about it, but I really do feel so much better. When I woke up this morning to go to work, I just got dressed. No incessant snoozing, no trying to figure out what I'm going to wear, no procrastinating. I just got up, got dressed, and made it on time. No speeding, no combing hair in the car. Today was a good day. I looked and felt wonderful. My kids were fine. We wrote papers today.
I sent my cousin the papers for the Summer Science Program at Tougaloo. I really want him to complete the application. I'm sure he will be accepted if he just turns it in. That's if they have it because when I talked to a lady in Kincheloe, she said she wasn't sure if they would have it this year.
I got my hair pressed out yesterday and it is absolutely beautiful. I don't even remember my hair being this straight when I was getting it permed. It took a long time to get here though bc the first lady did not do a good job. The second girl did though, but I don't know if all that heat was healthy or not. She did spray some heat protectant/protector (?) on my hair though.
That's all on my mind now. I'm about to watch these girls fall on their asses on Top Model. It was too funny last week not to watch again.
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Saturday, March 18, 2006

I had a nice little time in Atlanta. I caught up on a lot of much needed rest, though I am sure my friends got tired of me snoring. I just feel so tired. Anyway, I had a couple firsts. I ate at Pappadeaux and I had fried alligator. I'd been wanted to eat at Pappadeaux for a while, just didn't have one near me. I must admit I was a bit skeptical about the alligaotor, but I it was actaully good, better than calamari. I had fun in Atlanta, but I don't feel like typing about that.
Last night, I had a ______________ conversation with someone I hadn't talked to in a few months. (I don't know the word to describe it. Maybe I will fill in the blank later) The convo lasted a little over two hours and the entire time, all I could think was "damn, why can't i have these convos with BOB?" Needless to say, it was good. I can't say I missed those conversations bc I don't know if we ever had them, but I do know that last night was definitely the best conversation I have ever had with him in life. I took a couple things from it. The first was that I need to relax. I am lettting too many things stress me. The second involves this thing I am going thru which is leading me to cutting people off. I am at this point where if I feel like you have no purpose in my life, then I have to let you go and if I feel like your purpose has been fulfilled, then it's time to let you go. So as of late, I have been evaluating everyone's purpose in my life. I decided that a few people had served thier purposes and were no longer needed so I stopped talking to them. Well for some reason, I told him that and he asked me did I think people only had one purpose in my life. That was interesting and I didn't respond. Then he said some people in your life may not have fulfilled their purpose but you are going to cut them off before they have an opportunity. That was interesting as well. Odds are, he is right. However, for personal growth, there are a couple people (at least a couple) who I cannot deal with anymore. They wreck my brain and I don't need that. Or maybe, one day we will converse again, but I know that at this time in my life I do not need them or want them in my life.
Ok, I gotta take these damn braids down. I've been procrastinating all day and I have somewhere to be at 7.

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Thursday, March 16, 2006

Four-way stop

I'm driving home and I come to a four way stop. I sit there and check all directions. The plan was to go straight, but when I looked right, I almost wanted to go right. Something was pulling on me to go right. Everytime I get to that stop, something tells me to go right, but it's unfamiliar. The buildings look funny; the people are dressed funny; the cars are expensive. I decide not to go that way, but can't shake the feeling that is telling me to turn off. I look left and I want to go that way. I really want to go left. I can see it. The buildings look weird, but the people over there look like me. I think they think like me, too. I think I should go left. I think left is for me. Then I remember that I was driving straight and I know how to get where I am going if I go straight. I don't know where turning left or right will lead me, but I know exactly where straight will take me. It takes me to familiarity. It takes me to contentment. I takes me to a place where I know there aren't too many problems. I decide to go straight, but when I get ready to press the gas, my foot won't move off the brake. I've been sitting at the four way stop for about 7 months, just sitting, trying to decide which way to go.

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Friday, March 10, 2006

Spring Break

SCHOOL'S OUT!!!!!!!!! ALL THREE OF THEM!!!!!!!! I am too elated! I am headed to Atlanta! I cannot wait to get there. The last time I was there we had a blast! We are going to be one man (woman) short this time, but I still think we will have so much fun. I want to go the Apache Cafe, but they don't have anything interesting going on this week. I have to check out Ranada's store. I saw something I wanted. I haven't seen her in so long. I haven't seen Jameka since last year's Pink and Green Week. I'm just excited! I gotta finish washing and pack! Enjoy your week everybody!

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Sunday, March 05, 2006

Feeling Good, Feeling Great, Look Good, Don't Hate

I'm feeling so good right now. Church was absolutely wonderful. Rev. Pickette preached a wonderful sermon on salvation. The choir sang beautifully. I was so glad he talked about salvation bc I am growing just a little weary on the things you need to do have a prosperous life on earth. I think it's too many lost souls to incessantly preach on how to receive a financial blessing. I think when your soul is right with God, he will start to bless you spiritually, mentally, financially, emotionally, any kind of blessing. Anyway, it was wonderful.
This year I decided to give up meat and sodas for Lent. The meat part is quite difficult. It hasn't even been a week and I am struggling. I didn't know I was supposed to be praying about something in the process. I thought it was just a sacrifice because Jesus sacrificed those fourty days in the wilderness and Lent was symbolic of that. However, two people have asked me what I am praying for during Lent. I didn't have an answer because I didn't know I needed one. So today I prayed that God gives me guidance and show me where he wants me to go in August. I should have started on The Purpose Driven Life on Ash Wednesday and finished it for Easter. It seems like I could have commited to that.
I have started to let go of the possibilty that someone I dated may be bisexual. I'm not saying I doubt that he is or that I am sure that he is; I'm just saying I can't worry with it. If he is, he is and if he ain't, he ain't. That's not for me to consider. One of my friends suggesting writing him a letter, which will probably be good for both of us, but right now I really don't know what to say. I don't really want to question him because I don't know what good it would do. I don't know. Maybe something will come to me.
I had a wonderful weekend. Friday night I went to Gamma Rho's probate show and they did well. Then I went to Gamma Omicron's and QPsiPhi party and had a blast. It was good seeing so many of my line sisters, especially Tiffiney! Then last night, I finally finished The Violent Bear It Away. Then I went to see Madea's Family Reunion and it was great. I laughed and cried, laughed and cried, tears of happiness, tears of pain. It was just a good movie. I especially liked the commentary of the state of the Black Family. Of course, there were quite a few scenes that were overdone and one of the leading actresses couldn't act worth a dime, but overall, it was good. I'd been waiting to see it, but everytime I made plans, something came up.
I am going to read a little for mid-terms tomorrow. My daddy will be here at 630, so I need to knock some of this work out.

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