Incidents in the life of.....

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Sunshine

I was going to post a somber blog, but something told me to read the listserve first and my entire mood has changed. I am sad that I cannot attend this event before everyone leaves, but I will just have to see them for MIP. I love those ladies. When I was reading the messages, I could hear their voices. It was nice. I miss those girls! Anyway, now I have nothing to talk about. Ash's b-day is tomorrow and I promised her I would go out with her to a movie and dinner since both of us are single. I hate Red Lobster, but I'm going. We are also going to see Catwoman, though I heard it sucked. I still want to see it. Then I am off to the Delta to pay my dag on first month's rent and security deposit. Go me! I wish everyone a blessed weekend bc I know I won't be back soon. God bless!

Posted by Nik :: 7/22/2004 :: 4 Comments:

Sunday, July 18, 2004

CONTINUATION

I feel so much better. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't have sex until December. I was thinking if I could make it through July, I would be fine. July is almost over and the one person I thought would give me trouble has yet to do so. I have made it through a full month. Five more to go. I did this last summer. Anyway, ever since I told TYJ and told him not to call me anymore I have been feeling better. It's like a bulk load of stress has been lifted. I told Mr. Interesting about my promise to myself and he has not tried me. That's a good thing. I haven't dated anyone. I started talking to this one dude, but when I asked him what he watches on TV his response was BET and MTV. I asked what else and he said nothing. I asked what magazines he reads, he said Sports Illustrated. I asked how he kept up with current events, he said he didn't. That turned me all the way off. WTH? So, I don't talk to him anymore. I felt bad for a bried minute about Dorlisa. That did not last long. I can't remember if I posted about Cingular, so I will do it now. I work in the call center at Cingualr Wireless. I hate that damn place. I need to get used to those hours though. When I get home, my body is so drained that I just take a bath and go to sleep. I don't get up until my phone rings. The pay is good though and I am going to need it when I move. I decided to take the job with Leflore and I plan on moving next weekend. I'm happy about that. The rent is the cheapest there and the salary is the highest, so that is a plus. My dad pissed me off twice in one day. Ain't that a bitch. First, he didn't take me to move into my apartment. I guess I should explain that I am not moving on my own bc my car is a lemon. It needs to be on PIMP MY RIDE. Well, maybe I am exaggerating. Let's see: the brakes are damn near gone; they are scrubbing. The rubber around door that is supposed to keep the rain out (i think) is coming a loose; everytime I open the door I have to put it back. The radio works when it wants to. I have to hold the knob that adjusts the volume just to change the station. I need new spark plugs. I have a donut and the other tires need replacing. I am missing two hubcaps. That's about it. The engine and/or motor is fine. It's regular maintenance, I just want a new car. I am going to get all of that fixed before I leave home though.
Enough about me though. Rita's baby died yesterday. She went in for a check-up and the doctor told her the baby didn't have a heartbeat. So they admitted her into the hospital. I went up there. She was laughing and smiling, but I know she is going through right now. She went into labor today. I called her, but she was sleep. I called back and she didn't answer the phone. I feel so bad for her, but I just acted normal. People don't like sympathy, esp. her. We talked about everything but that. Before I left, I told her that I loved her. I wish there was something I could have done. I haven't talked to Frison. I have been trying to call her, but her phone is off. I haven't told her I have a new number, so that's why she hasn't called me. Maybe she has a new number as well. I have been thinking about JoMarie alot lately and I cannot figure out why. That bothers me. I called her today, but she didn't answer. It's prolly bc she didn't recognize the number. One of my friends is having difficulty with a situation that I am supposed to know how to explain, but I can't bc I haven't been there. She thinks I have, but I haven't and I can't tell her that. I can't sympathize or tell how I dealt with it or anything. I just tell her to be strong. That's all I can do. I help in anyway I can, but I can't help the way she needs me to. It bothers me for my own personal reasons as well as for her, but that's another story for another blog. Ashley got a job as an accoutant. I am happy for her. Melissa is about to start her first fall semester at Lemoyne-Owen. I'm happy about that. My ls are doing it big. We are going to be all over the country; Toya, Courtni, Valencia, and Angel on the East coast, Jameka in Atlanta, Ros in Chicago, Keysha and I still here. It's ok though bc I cannot wait to go to Chicago.
It's late. I'm out. Pray for those things you need and hope for things you want. It's a beautiful life.

Posted by Nik :: 7/18/2004 :: 2 Comments:

Monday, July 12, 2004

Guess Who's Back

Man, I forgot I had a blog. That's sad huh? I guess I should update everyone on my latet happenings. I interviewed in two more cities, Coldwater and Greenwood. I got the job in Greenwood, but Coldwater is still in the air. I think I want to get that one more so to keep my ego in place. I don't know how I would respond if didn't get it. The man in Yazoo called again today. He wants me bad. I used to want Yazoo equally bad, but now I am not so sure. I have no idea where I am going. I just don't know. This would be so much easier had I not applied for all of these positions. I think I am going to put them all in a hat and just pull. J/k. I am going to think it about it. I must reach a decision soon bc school is about to start. I started work at Cingular today. It was so boring. This girl I went to high school with came and sat next to me. We just started talking like old friends. She used to be pretty cool, but as soon as Brandon and I broke up she slept with him and that did not sit too well with me. So I stopped talking to her. (It was high school; give me a break.) Now I am older and wiser and really just do not care. I also realize that there is no reason to hold a grudge. Ir hurts the person holding the grudge a whole lot more than the person he or she is holding it against. So that is that. I used to look up to this girl in high school. In high school, I thought whites were naturally smarter than blacks. I was pretty smart and she was smarter than me, so I just thought she was brilliant. Now, she has two children and two baby daddies and no degree. She fell off for a minute and I was disgusted with her, but I just think she is like everyone else in this small town. She said her little girl's daddy is a hoe and it won't last long, yet she is still with him. WTH? I think she will wake up, it just might take a minute. I talked to my step-sister today and she broke up with her son's father. That's a good thing. He wasn't violent or anything; they just weren't headed in the same direction. I guess they just grew apart. She sounds happy, but I know that can be misleading. I believe her though. She said she was working on self and that is a good thing. I admire that. I still talk to Mr. Interesting and he is going through a whole lot. He says he's working on himself too, but I think it's just a phase.
Me, I am working on me. I am trying to right all of my wrongs. I made a vow not to have sex for six months. One down, five to go. Last time, I said 3 months, so now I am doubling it. I think I could rid myslef of a lot of problems if I take sex out of it. I have a lot more to say but my mom keeps calling my name, so I will have to post later.
Until next time....

Posted by Nik :: 7/12/2004 :: 3 Comments: