Wednesday, June 02, 2004

Mr. ?

I have been talking an awful lot to a once Mr. Wonderful, once Mr. Asshole, now Mr. Leave-Ashley-Confused. I haven't talked to him more than normal, but the level has shifted on me. We used to just have simple convos about our day and a few things that left one of us perturbed. Now, all of a sudden, we are talking about taking trips to visit each other. I don't know. When I saw him a few weeks ago, it was like nothing had changed. I spent the night with him, but it was no big deal. When we woke up,we laughed and cracked jokes as usual. We were just friends. Now he is asking me to spend the weekend of my birthday and a couple more weekends with him. Usually when I am about to do something I shouldn't a voice in my head tells me not to do it. Most of the time, I do it and deal with the consequences later. This time, I don't hear that voice. I don't know if it is bc I have changed and don't care about the male species as I once did or if I am ignoring it or if the voice has nothing negative to tell me. I really don't know. I like him. I do. I just don't know where this is going. I don't know why he wants to spend time with me. I don't know why I am so willing to go. I guess I will just have to think on it a little more. Right now, it seems like I will be spending time with him.
My friends seem to think he is the one I am going to marry. I don't know if they think he is the one I am supposed to marry though. I know I love him, but I don't think a relationship could work. If it woould work, I would be more than willing to invest in it. I just don't see it. I think he has a good heart and I know he realizes what went wrong. I still don't know. I do know I love him though. I don't know ladies.
Posted by Nik :: 6/02/2004 :: 2 Comments:

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