Monday, May 24, 2004

On my mind

It's funny how we get upset when people do exactly what you knew they would. They do what you unadmittingly knew they would, but prayed they did not. It's like we want so desperately to believe people change and deserve a second chance when in reality, they haven't and they don't. The more things change the more they stay the same. It's even funnier how life keeps attempting to teach us this one particular lesson that we refuse to learn. For some reason, we just cannot wrap our brains around it. The people with all the book sense seem to be the ones with no common sense at all. Is there a book I can read to solve this one?
On the up side, I have spent the past two days with my neice. Yesterday my sister had to work, so I kept her. (I am so proud of my sister. She has been through hell and high water. Now it seems like she is reaping the benefits of all she sowed during the worst year of her life. HEr journey is not complete, but her destination is one of success. I admire her strength so much. ) Today I just felt like being blessed by my neice's presence. She is something else. I learn something new everyday. In the beauty salon Saturday we were talking about Bill Cosby's comments on the way the black community speaks. I was so happy when she said, "yes you are." I think I said I wasn't something and she said yes you are. Nevermind the part where she unknowingly called me a lie, I was just glad she said are, rather than is. My little cousins used to have it bad saying, "I'm is." I know that's a bit much, but they said it. My neice says "I am." She speaks so well. She's only two and holds full conversations. Her vocabulary is so advanced. I cannot wait to see where her life leads her.
I went to Waffle House Saturday night with my friend Alicia. I enjoyed talking to her. Talking to her made me realize I have traveled quite a journey. It's weird how I just do things and don't think about the outcome or how what I am doing could cause a lot of pain in someone else's life. I know I shouldn't do things to purposely hurt people bc they have hurt me, and I don't, but at the same time, when I am doing something and I realize it could hurt someone else, I am not so quick to stop when that person has already caused so much pain in my life. I don't want to think about that, so I am going to catch up on my friend's posts. Oh yeah, kh, your page is cute.
Posted by Nik :: 5/24/2004 :: 2 Comments:

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