Monday, May 24, 2004

On my mind

It's funny how we get upset when people do exactly what you knew they would. They do what you unadmittingly knew they would, but prayed they did not. It's like we want so desperately to believe people change and deserve a second chance when in reality, they haven't and they don't. The more things change the more they stay the same. It's even funnier how life keeps attempting to teach us this one particular lesson that we refuse to learn. For some reason, we just cannot wrap our brains around it. The people with all the book sense seem to be the ones with no common sense at all. Is there a book I can read to solve this one?
On the up side, I have spent the past two days with my neice. Yesterday my sister had to work, so I kept her. (I am so proud of my sister. She has been through hell and high water. Now it seems like she is reaping the benefits of all she sowed during the worst year of her life. HEr journey is not complete, but her destination is one of success. I admire her strength so much. ) Today I just felt like being blessed by my neice's presence. She is something else. I learn something new everyday. In the beauty salon Saturday we were talking about Bill Cosby's comments on the way the black community speaks. I was so happy when she said, "yes you are." I think I said I wasn't something and she said yes you are. Nevermind the part where she unknowingly called me a lie, I was just glad she said are, rather than is. My little cousins used to have it bad saying, "I'm is." I know that's a bit much, but they said it. My neice says "I am." She speaks so well. She's only two and holds full conversations. Her vocabulary is so advanced. I cannot wait to see where her life leads her.
I went to Waffle House Saturday night with my friend Alicia. I enjoyed talking to her. Talking to her made me realize I have traveled quite a journey. It's weird how I just do things and don't think about the outcome or how what I am doing could cause a lot of pain in someone else's life. I know I shouldn't do things to purposely hurt people bc they have hurt me, and I don't, but at the same time, when I am doing something and I realize it could hurt someone else, I am not so quick to stop when that person has already caused so much pain in my life. I don't want to think about that, so I am going to catch up on my friend's posts. Oh yeah, kh, your page is cute.
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Friday, May 21, 2004

Ketchup

I haven't been on here in a week. I should say that I am glad to be back at home, but I am not. I don't want to be here. No one has done anything to piss me off or said anything out of the way, but I just don't want to be here. I hope my time here is limited to one week. I want to take everyone their thank you cards and leave. Mrs. Kornegay hasn't called me back about the job at the dentist's office. I called her, but to no avail. Duwayne is supposed to be calling Keisha at McRae's. I need some kinda job. It's my fault though bc my moma told me I didn't have to work this summer and I actually thought I would be content with that. NOT! So I am about to get on Monster.com and see what's available. I also need to see what teaching jobs are available in the fall. I know it won't be hard, but I want to be able to have choices.
Since I haven't written, graduation was nice. Dr. (damn, cant remember her name at the moment) didn't give a speech. It felt more like she was just talking. I don't know exactly how I feel about that. Julius's speech was really nice. I am going to miss my classmates, mainly my ls. I need to call Frison. She is about the only one that I talked to on a regular basis and hasn't talked to. I talked to Keysha and Roz yesterday. I will see Jameka bc she is literally right around the corner. Before the summer is out I will prolly call Toya, JoMary, and Danielle. Back to graduation...all of my aunts and uncles came excpet 2. I was too happy. They were so proud of me. They were getting on my nerves Saturday though, sending me on a million and one errands. I called myself getting everything together Friday so that I could relax Saturday. The only thing I had planned was getting my hair done. That was a waste bc it was so frizzy. It was cute when she did it though. It was cute on my pics, too. I guess that's all that matters.
I'm out. I need to do something productive.

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

A good weekend

I had a really good weekend. My best friend graduated Magna Cum Laude from Tuskegee University with a Bachelor's degree in Accounting. I am so proud of her. We had a good weekend. Friday, we went to a graduation party. Saturday we walked around three malls in two different cities. My feet were killing me, but I put up with her. She almost cried in Dillard's. I had to calm her down. Sunday was commencement. It was so nice. I cried. All I could think was that was gone be me in a week. Then we went out to eat and I got on the road. I had a nice time. Then I went to see this guy that I am so not interested in. He is really sweet, but I just do not like him. He is not even remotely cute. He tries so hard. I was hungry and he cooked me a whole damn meal. It was a nice gesture, but I am not feeling him.
I came back to school Tuesday. I got aggravate as soon as I got to Jackson. I went to take my brother his car, and he was nowhere to be found. I sat there and waited. As soon as I left, he called. So I had to wait for him to meet me. Then I had to go off on the man at TNT again. I have had it up to...... with him. I went to pick up my grades. Dr. Woods punk ass gave me a C. A fucking C in the easiest class on the yard. He always talked about people wanting a grade change in his class, hell I see why. A C. Come on now. I do not make Cs. Then all we have done is took the damn test. I know I aced it bc it's the only test I had. Bastard. So I am waiting on him to change that bc it brought my gpa down. I only had four classes, so a C is not good. I had 3 As and a C. WTH? Then I went to Ruby Tuesday with Jessica. Whoa. I had a few drinks, Walk me down, Long Islands, and Bahama Mama. Tipsy. I was worried I wasn't gone get home. I made it. I fell into the bed. Just fell. I felt so right. I was feeling super good. Then I got a phone call and somebody needed a ride to their hotel. I told him I couldn't take him bc I had been drinking. He volunteered to drive. I said ok. When he got to my car, I was like hell no. You cannot drive me anywhere.
Tonight we had the consecration service. It was so nice. Everyone lit their candles and sang the Alma Mater. My ls and I lit each other's candles. It was nice. It was so beautiful. I think we were just happy because we know we only have a few more days together. I know we are friends and call each other on the regular, but it's going to be different. We can't just call and say I'm about to go to the mall, come go with me. Or ya'll let's go out to eat. I'm going to miss these young ladies. They are truly unique. Of the 19 of us that are graduating, 17 will be walking with gold chords around our necks. We are bad. I cannot wait until MIP or the probate when we all come back. Well actually, most of us will be together on Sept. 4 to celebrate Tenesha's wedding. Tonight, Kelli, Evonie, Roz, JoMarie, Toya, Keysha, Ashley J., and I went to Ruby Tuesday. We were just chilling. It was fun. We definitely took enough pictures. I am really going to miss them.

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Wednesday, May 05, 2004

FINISHED

It feels weird not having anything to do. I took the GRE, turned in my community service hours, checked my bill, took my finals, got my senior paper signed. I need some signatures on my clearance sheet, but they won't sign it until Monday. I can go home. I have nothing pertinent to do at the moment so I will catch up on reading my friends' blog. I hope everyone has a beautiful day.

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Tuesday, May 04, 2004

GRE

Today started off pretty good. I talked to my father. We said a prayer before I took the GRE. I got dressed, went to Burger King. Their crossainwhiches are so good. I headed toward Sylvan. I was pretty excited. I sat in the car, ate breakfast, and drank my orange juice. Halfway between a peice of bacon and an egg I realized I did not have my i.d. I told Roz to go ahead. She said she was going to tell the lady in the testing center I was on my way. It was 845. The test started at 9. I was speeding, but then I remembered that last night I had a dream that I got pulled over and went to jail. So I slowed my butt down. I took the test. I did horrible. I was looking at those vocabulary words like wth? I am usually pretty decent with analogies. I couldn't do those either. I didn't know what the hell was going on. I just had to guess. The math was even worse. That's my fault though because I could have at least reviewed for that. I don't even know the formula for perimeter. If there is a formula. I knew the area and what perpendicular meant, but it ended there. I looked at that the same way I looked at the reasoning part. I'm an English major and I actually did better, though neither was good, on the quantitative than the reasoning. I had a 490 and 470, respectively. I think I did ok on the essay. I hope so. I had to reread the second question. When I sat down and thought about it, I had some pretty decent thoughts. I finished typing with five seconds remaining. Well I finished proofing it with five seconds remaining. I had ten minutes left on the first one and made it up off the top of my head. So anyway, I hope I did better on the essay. I need at least a 4.5. It's on a 6 point scale. We shall see relatively soon. Keysha said 960 total is not bad. I think she said a thousand will pretty much get you anywhere. I'll be content for now with the 960, but I am taking it again and enrolling in a prep course. I want to go to an Ivy League. I cannot do with the score I have now. I hope I do better on the Praxis. I just need to pass that. I need the content portion so I think I will be fine. I am pretty decent in my area.
In a few hours, I will be officially finished with school. I have one more final at 6. I am about to go study. It shouldn't be too hard. I really don't care at this point in time. I think I will be in there appx. 30 minutes. I either know it or I don't. However, what I do know is that at about nine o'clock I plan on being very tipsy.

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