Monday, March 29, 2004

Saturday

I woke up early for some reason. I cleaned up. I just felt like cleaning. After I finished I went to sleep. My momma came in my room and said, Nik. Get up. I'm looking at her like why. She said Larry died. I jumped up and got dressed. My clothes were already ironed. I did that before I went to sleep. So I am getting dressed and she says where are you going. I tell her to the hospital. She tells me to calm down and she is going too. So we go to the hospital and I see all these people in the hall just crying. I have no idea what to say. I'm just standing there looking stupid. I don't want to be here anymore. The hospital is making me think about my grandma, even though she was at Faye's when she died. My mom walks me around the corner to another waiting room. Sheree and Kathy are already there. They tell us he isn't dead, just brain dead. His mom is going to take him off life support but she wants everyone to get a chance to see him. My mom asks me if I want to go see him. When I left my house, I thought I did, but standing there then I didn't. I told her no. So we were just sitting there with Kathy and Ree. Talking to them cleared a lot of things up. I was told there were 2 people in the car, but there were actually three. Larry was in the backseat. There was a driver and a passenger. The passenger is fine because when the car started to flip, he balled up on the floor under the dashboard. That was smart but I don't know how many people would have thought to do it. The driver is still in the hospital, but Larry is gone. It was just so senseless. He's dead for simply being in the wrong place at the wrong time. He had nothing to do with the way the boy was driving. He didn't have a say in the matter, now he is dead due to someone else's negligence. And the guy will be ok. He is in the hospital, but he will be fine. He is being charged with manslaughter. I don't really know how I feel about that. I realize someone is dead, but the boy didn't mean to kill him. That was his friend. I understand it could have been avoided, but to know your friend is dead and it is your fault seems like enough punishment to me. I don't know if I want the dude to go to jail, but it really is his fault. It just would have been have been easier to accept if he was the one driving. Then I could say, why was Larry being so careless. Knowing he was in the back only leads me to why was Larry in the car with him. The answer is simple. Because that was his friend. That's what we do. I just wish the outcome was different, but God has a master plan. I will accept it.
When I saw Larry's sister, she looked fine. She is about 13 and she looked like she didn't really understand that her brother was dead. Maybe because at this point he was still breathing. She was just watching cartoons and laughing, like any saturday morning. She was playing with one of the other children there. Maybe it was her cousin or something. I hope she is ok. I didn't see his mom. Maybe she was in the room with him or something. I feel the worst for her. I can't even imagine what it is like to have to bury your child, your oldest child, your only son. I pray for her stregnth. I pray for that dude too. He is probably going to jail. Sometimes, you just have to take things in stride, even though you don't understand them.
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This weekend has been the absolute worst. I got a phone call Friday night saying my grandmother died. At first I couldn't think. I was just standing there holding the phone, long after I had hung it up. Then I got dressed and got on the road to Hattiesburg. I felt horrible. I couldn't see while I was driving. I had to take my contacts off and put on my glasses. I finally made it to Hattiesburg. I talked to Ashley. She made me feel better, but I still didn't feel too great. Got home. Went to my aunt's. When I got there, everyone was talking and laughing. That helped a whole lot. My daddy took me to Taco Bell then home. When I got in the bed I couldn't sleep. It wasn't because I was upset though. I was just thinking about the last time I saw her. She looked fine. My aunt Kathy got married. It was a small ceremony, then a reception at her house. When I walked in, I didn't even see my grandma. I walked right past her. Then when I came back I saw her. I sat next to her. She just smiled. She said, I was wondering how long it was going to be before you said anything. I apologized and gave her hug. We were just talking, then one of my aunts said something crazy and my grandma said hush up girl. She was trying to explain but my Daily said she "don't nobody want to hear that ruckus." So she shut up. Then someone started talking about Woody and her face just lit up. She was so proud of him. She just bragging about her grandson making six figures, even though he is working for the white folks. The nigras just don't know how to treat people. All the while, I am just sitting there listening to this woman. She says whatever she wants to, to whomever she wants to. Anyway, the party progresses and she's ready to go. She tells Evelyn this, who is not too pleased, but is getting out of her seat anyway. I walk her to the car. She was using her cane, so I wasn't helping her. Even if I would have tried to hold her arm or something, she would have told me to move. She was just so independent. She lived by herself in her little two bedroom apartment. She went to the nursing home twice a week to read to the "elderly." Mind you, this woman is in her late eighties. On one of my visits, we were talking about the nursing home. She said she liked going there. It made her feel young, even though most of the people there were younger than her. She said when she got to the point where she needed assistance, just take her the nursing home. I told her nobody was taking her the nursing home. She said you gone be somewhere teaching and everybody else is gone be working. I don't want to burden anyone. I told her we had been "burdening" her all of our lives. It wouldn't be a problem. She said she wanted to go. She liked the people in the nursing home. I told her the people in the nursing home mistreat the patients. She told me I didn't know what I was talking about and to stop believing everything I see on television. Those people get three meals a day. They get a bath. They have visitors. They have friends. That is the same thing she has right now. The only difference is someone will be there to watch her 24 hours a day. I shut up. Seemed like her mind was made to me. Then she started talking about teaching. She said she didn't know why I didn't want to go to law school, but if I want to teach, then go ahead. Don't live my life for Ricky or Annie. They had their turn. Let them go to law school. Do whatever makes Ashley happy. I just smiled. It was nice to know I had her blessing. Anyway, Evelyn put her in the car after Kathy's reception and I gave her hug. (Maybe I should have hugged her first.) Then she told me to be patient because school is almost out. Then she tried to give me $5. She said I know it ain't much, but you can go buy yourself a soda. I told her I was fine. She told me to take it. I told her no because my daddy was going to give me some money. She said well don't tell him I gave you this. (I'm just cheesing because this woman is so stubborn. Not to mention, she gets a social security check and needs this money.) I remember one time Woody said something about "his granddaddy paying her bills, even though he has been dead for at least 21 years because I never knew him. She must have looked at him like he was stupid. She said, D'Wayne, what in the hell are you talking about? He said something about the check she gets every month. I don't know what he was talking about. Maybe she gets something because my grandfather was a veteran. I don't know. She told him don't worry about how her bills get paid, just don't call her and ask her for help paying his law school loans back. He said something about Evelyn helping him. (This was before he was making 6 figures.) Evelyn said, Don't try to turn me against Daily. That's my momma. Muh was just looking at him like, now what. So he just shut up. She looked at me and smiled, so cunningly. She was truly a gem. I am going to miss her, but I am not sad anymore. It was really just her time. She went to sleep. I am sure she is in a far better place. I only wish she could attend my graduation. I think that is going to be the hardest part. I think that may be even harder than attending the funeral. It is just sometimes, you expect certain people in certain places. She was just so proud of Ashley Nicole. I can still hear her telling my daddy, leave that girl alone. If she wants to teach, let her. Just be good at it, Ashley Nicole. I am going to miss her. It's ok though because I know she is ok and home in glory.

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Tuesday, March 23, 2004

Random

We almost won the Quiz Bowl sponsered by KAPsi. We won the Greek portion, but the quiz bowl team kicked our butt. It's ok though. I'm just glad we could be of assistance and I wish them well in Florida.
My classmate hasn't made any progress since I last posted. I'm keeping him and his family in my prayers.
It's election time again at the 'Loo. Today was the kick-off rally. I'm feeling optimistic about the way things will be handled this year. We are wearing Kelli's t-shirts tomorrow. Her fliers look nice. Her pamplets are informative. I hope she comes out victorious. Allen hosted a "meet the candidate" tonight. It was ok, but I felt like he was talking at me instead of to me. His platform sounds good though. Right now, I think I am going to vote for him, but my mind may change as the campaign continues. Nothing is certain.
I am going to wash my hair relatively soon. It is so dirty. I want to roll it, but I don't feel like it. I was going to ask Jameka, but she doesn't get off work until 930 and she is bound to be tired. So I will prolly end up doing it myself.
I am tired of rambling. I'm going to go over this info on Prince Hall.

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Monday, March 22, 2004

Friends and Lamers

I love my friends. I just ate dinner with LJ. We sat and talked for an hour; it prolly would have been longer hadn't Candice Love Jackson torn our papers up. We just talked. We haven't done that in a while. We are going to have to go out sometime before graduation. As I was getting in my car, Louise called. She called to see how I felt about a certain dude and make sure I knew nothing was going on between them. I didn't think there was, but I appreciate her calling anyway. Keysha called earlier to make sure I was ok. I am fine; I just pray Larry gets better. He is alert now, so that is a plus. But the doctors are still saying it doesn't look good. Miracles happen and the doctor aren't always right. Let's just pray he gets better.
There is a guy sitting next to me. He is talking to me for no apparent reason, but for some reason I am not bothered. He is trying to get in contact with Emmit Smith to see if he will do something for Make A Wish Foundation. He was doing ok until he said something about my boyfriend. Now I know he is about to hit on me. He's writing his phone number down. Did I ask for it? I don't remember. Ok, I was wrong. He did not write his number. He wrote: This is a 3 1/2 year contract saying you will be faithful to me in our relationship. _____________________ signature ________________ date
PSYCHOTIC. I feel like Ranada and her weird dude situationss. He is still talking to me. He just asked me would I date an athlete. Maybe I should just ignore him.

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Sunday, March 21, 2004

INCIDENTS

I had a great time at home. I caught up on some much needed sleep. Friday night I watched Fighting Temptations with my little brother. It was ok. Saturday morning I got up at 8 because my sister had to be at work for nine and it was her first day, so I was pretty excited. Then I watched Under the Tuscan Sun with my mom. It was sweet. At one, my little brother, mom, dad, and I went to Boomtown to eat lunch. It was so good. I was too full. Then we went to Edgewater Mall because my mom wanted some new tennis shoes. Of all the colors in the world, she chose some white Rees with orange trim. They are really cute, but I have no idea what she is going to wear with them. I was so full (which in my book equals sleepy), I fell asleep on the way back. They went to Lowe's to (I think) look at some swings for the backyard. I stayed in the truck. My daddy bought my mommy a new truck for her birthday, which by the way isn't for another 2.5 weeks. When we finally got home, I went to sleep. When I woke up I watched Brown Sugar with my parents. I liked it best this time. All the other times I watched it, it wasn't that good. Then I watched something with Travis on some network I had never heard of. Eventually I fell asleep. This morning I woke up and went to Sunday School. I don't remember the last time I went to Sunday school. The lesson was about Judas's betrayal. Church was good. They sang "I need you," "Praise is what I do" and Immanuel. He preached about Jesus's crucifixion. He talked about Jesus being punished undeservingly and we don't even stop to say thank you. He preached about the Passion of the Christ changing people's lives and how it is so sad because these same people sit in church Sunday after Sunday and don't get anything out of it. I see where he is coming from, but I think we should be greatful that something touched them. He also criticized the fact that the guy was Italian (I believe, not sure). He thinks a black man should have been portrayed, but again, that's not important. I just want people to get the message. I still haven't seen it. I'm not up to it yet. I will go before it leaves though. I made it back to school safely. My brother made it back safely. I didn't see him all weekend because he was in Florida with Aubree for Spring Break.My family is happy. My neice and nephew are healthy. I'm almost out of school. I am blessed.
Now the bad....One of my classmates, who I happened to date, was in a really bad car accident. He broke his spinal cord and legs. He also has swelling on the brain and is in a coma. I am not sure what swelling on the brain means, but I think it means he is slightly brain dead. He is in ICU. I am praying for him and his family. I really hope he is ok. You just never know. Speed limits are posted and no one seems to obey them. When I got the call I was doing 85 in a 65. It shook me up, but I only slowed down to 70. The signs are there for more than decoration. I am realizing more and more that death knows no age. It just comes and when it's your turn, there is nothing you can do about it. I hope it isn't his and I am praying, but God has a plan. Sometimes we don't realize what it is and sometimes we don't realize why, but he has a plan and there is nothing we can do but accept it. I am praying for him to be ok, but if he is odds are, he will be paralyzed. He may even be brain dead. So if he makes it, he will prolly suffer the rest of his life. To me that's not neccessarily better. I guess it is up to his mom to decide. I hope he is ok though. He wasn't perfect; yeah he had problems, but don't we all. One thing I can say though is that he never messed with anyone. He was just cool relax. I pray he wakes up. Lord keep him and his family.
When things like this happen, it makes you appreciate life more. We complain so much and not even realize how many people are waay worse than we are. There are people who cannot get out of bed, brush their teeth, comb their hair, dress themselves. Yet we have full use of all our limbs. There are people hoping wishing and praying to get into college, yet we are here, almost finish and won't go to class. All of this can be taken away and we don't even realize it.
Incidents just make you think. Where am I driving to? Where is my destination? It's in someone's classroom off some interstate. I am heading there and will reach my destination in 5 months. Where will it be?

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Wednesday, March 17, 2004

In the News

One day I am going to look back on this and wonder what was happening in the news. All of this is major so, I'm sure you have already read all of this.
Charles A. McCoy Jr., who was wanted in 23 highway shootings, got caught in a Las Vegas Hotel. The man who turned him in noticed that he was reading an article about himself printed by USA today. That was not very bright. If he knew he was in the paper, it seemed like he would have taken it to his room to read. He was schizophrenic though. That prolly explains why he gave the hotel clerk his real name.
A car bomb in Bagdad killed 26 people and injured 40-something. The US keeps telling us that there will be an increase in violence in Bagdad. I just think these people are psychotic and it is only a matter of time before they do something else to America. How many troops are we going to have to loose before they realize that we cannot save everyone. How many people are you going to pull from college campuses and jobs before we pull out of Iraq. I think the situation is under more control than it was a year ago, but I don't understand why our troops are there. Why can't we let them fight their own battles. It's really amazing how we HELP certain people, then let others destroy an entire nation before we INTERVENE.
Susan Lindauer said she is misunderstood and being punished because she got involved in U.S. foreign policy. She said she was trying to persuade Iraq to allow weapons inspections before the war and to get it to cooperate with the war on terror. Supposedly she met with an undercover FBI agent to discuss resistance in Ieaq. She alledgedly met with people trying to kill Bush as well. I think I remember hearing O'Reilly mention something about her working in the White House and saying the government was trying to kill her. I think; I am not certain.
Jason Williams's trial is still going, even though the prosecution rests. The defense says it was accidental and he was trying to close the gun ( I don't know what that means bc I know nothing about guns) and it fired. Mysteriously, the limo driver was hit with twelve blasts. Forensics says it was a single blast, but 12 pellets hit the man. If I knew more about guns, perhaps I would better understand this.
I don't completely follow what is going on in Haiti. This is what I do know. Aristide won the election by a landslide in 1990, but within a year he was forced into exile in the US. The US intervenes to put him back in office. Aristide wins again. Foreigner halt all aid to Haiti until they can investigate the electoral process. This was in 2000. Last summer, protestors and government officials went at it. Revolts sprang up everywhere and hundreds of people killed. Last month, uprisings happened across the country. The people are really fed up with government. Foreigners, US included, insisted that Aristide step down. Aristide eventually flees. That's just the basics. I don't know what the real problem is. What has this man actually done?
A man is accused of killing nine people, all either his children or grandchildren. It seems like some of his grandchildren were his children as well. WTH? After he killed them, he buried them under a pile of clothes, but they were in coffins. What's even more odd is someone called the house because of a custody dispute.
(The grown student/man who was at one time messing with my dorm coordinator is now flirting with the grown woman who ran for Miss (Mrs.) Tougaloo. She does not seem in the least bit interested. He keeps asking her what time she is going to her room and she is going all around the question.)
The lady who refused the C-section was charged with murder when one of her twins died. (Something Rowlandson) The baby supposedly died two days before delivery and would have survived if she had the c-section. I think it was purely selfish for her not to have it, but I don't know if I think she should be charged with murder. I think so because the only reason she would not do it is because of the cosmetics. The other baby had cocaine in his system, so she obviously wasn't worried about the children. I don't understand why she just didn't have an abortion if she didn't want the children. She really should have been doing something to prevent herself from getting pregnant, but once she realized she was pregnant and didn't care about the well being of the fetuses, she should have had an abortion. This situation could and should have been avoided.
I have been in here too long. It is hot as hell and I feel moisture on my forehead.

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Monday night SGRho sponsered a basketball tournament amongst the sororities. The first game was between AKA and Delta. That was so funny. The Deltas sucked. It was ok though because they looked like they were having fun. Everyone was cheering for them. At that time, I thought they were just cheering to offer encouragement because they really needed it. ( I later realized they were cheering for them because they were playing us.) We were even cheering for them. The final score was something like 34-15. I cannot remember exactly but it was in that range. Anyway, so then we had to play the Zetas and all I could think is, "Oh my gosh. We have to play these manly girls. Maybe we should put some of the Alphas out there. Maybe we should just forfeit." Of course I didn't mean any of that, but it was so funny. Then when one in particular walked out, I was like, "who is going to guard her?" Anyway, the game went on. We were leading by three at one point. Then they were leading by five. No one was cheering for us then. Actually, everyone was cheering against us. It was just amazing to see how many people actually hated Alpha Kappa Alpha. I can understand you not liking some of the members, but to not like the sorority is ludicrous. Even non-greeks were making little comments. Anyway, either Keysha or Katina shot a three with one minute remaining, making the score 33-30. LJ came right behind her and shot one. It would have tied the game up had not one of her teammates called a time out right before she shot the ball. In the end, we won. 33-30. We were so hype. Everyone was hugging and offering congrats. All of the AKAs anyway. No one else offered congrats. Then we went to Wendy's to celebrate. I don't know why Wendy's. It was prolly because it was the closest and cheapest. We really didn't care. We just wanted to go celebrate. That was the highlight of my Monday.
Yesterday I took the comps. I hope I passed. Cistrunk had three questions. I answered two of them thoroughly; the third I half-assed. I wrote answers, I just don't know if they were right. I think they are, I'm just not sure. I don't know how I did on that Brit Lit test. I think I am going to have to retake that. I wrote three pages. I hope I don't have to retake that test. I messed up though because I wrote Beowulf when I was supposed to write Grendel. I am going to have to retake it. Oh well.
Oh yeah, I got an invite for Kappa Delta Pi today. It is an honor society in the field of education. (That's not worded right.) Membership is by invitation only and extended to the top 20% of education majors. Even though I am an English major, I have taken about six education classes and only made a B in one of them. The ceremony is next Wednesday. Maybe this is a sign that my day is not going to be as bad as I think.

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Monday, March 15, 2004

Not what I should have been doing

I know I was supposed to be completing the app for Brown, but for some reason I thought about personality quizzes. Maybe I have been around Rosalyn too long. ;) Anyway, here are my results. It was a Dewey Color Test from iVillage.com.

You're a Manager
Your thoughts are about constructing something new. You are constantly looking at past experiences to see what was of value. Then you tell everyone what actions need to be taken or avoided.
The passionate you thrives on orchestrated plans. Figuring out how to make your ideas a reality and seeing things through to completion is the ultimate high. These pursuits empower your self-confidence.
The centered you orders priorities. Objectively you balance your present commitments against possible opportunities. When all is quiet within, you value what you have without hanging on to it.
The emotional you needs to feel grounded. Reality can be disappointing. Accept each situation's truth and each person's motivation before you act. Ensure that your empowering determination is focused on agendas that can be accomplished.

I agree with all of it except the Manager thing. That is not me. I do tell people what works and doesn't, but I am not the one to think of new ideas. I just work behind the scenes on the committee.

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Unconscious mutterings

1. Old Navy:: pink
   
2. Out:: in
   
3. Indecent:: exposure
   
4. UPN:: network ( i know the N and network is redundant)
   
5. Pupil:: eyelid
   
6. Toothpaste:: crest
   
7. 1999:: party like it's
   
8. Passion:: of the Christ
   
9. Social security:: number
   
10. Cliff:: notes
    

I am rededicating myself. It is so easy to criticize and not notice what you are doing wrong or what you could be doing differently. I am going to rededicate myself to service and all of those who don't I won't worry with. I am building my own bridge and getting over it. I will handle Ashley and let everyone else handle herself.
I think I made Danielle mad last night. I hope I didn't, but if I did that's ok. I was just being honest. I wasn't rude or tactless with it. I went to her as a friend and told her how I felt. She didn't agree, but that's ok. Now she knows.
Atlanta was fun. Regionals was ok. I don't know what I was expected, but I didn't get it. I enjoyed the Ivy Beyond the Wall ceremony the most. It was so beautiful. I liked seeing all the "old school" AKAs. They were so cute. I love how even after so many years, they remain active. They really seemed to "love and serve Alpha Kappa Alpha." They are more prim and proper than younger sorors, too. I think I was just awed. I don't know why because there are older sorors in BDO, but it was just nice to see so many.
I finally got some ice cream yesterday. I had been craving ice cream since Tuesday and just pacifying the craving with apple pie and cheesecake (that was not good). I bought some yesterday though. It's in Roz's refrigerator. Whenever I want some I can just go get it. I saved a lot of money, too.
I have a meeting today with the Big Brother Big Sister Program. I'm not exactly thrilled about it, but we will see how it goes. I am going though because I need to do more service. JPS is on Spring Break so we cannot work with Reading AKAdemy this week.
I'm wearing my hat I got in Atlanta today. It's so cute and so me. I must go because I need to send off this app to Brown. Tata for now.

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Thursday, March 11, 2004

So much to do

There is always something going on here. Today we went to Olive Garden. As we pulled in, I was thinking Why are we going here? I can eat this in Jackson. It was really good though. The conversation wasn't dry. It just didn't consist of much. I guess bc everyone was so hungry, then we were so full. I really wanted some prelines and cream, but I didn't have anywhere to put it. Olive Garden was good. We went to the mall too. Keysha tried to hook Roz up with this dude. He was the worst. It was so funny. Roz had a lot of comments today too. It was cool though. I deserved it. I have been riding her all week. My dad called when we were in the mall. He pissed me off. I think he was trying to make things better because he pissed me off last night. It did not help though. There are so many nice looking dudes in Atlanta. They are just all under 5ft5.
We went to the Apache Cafe. It was so nice. Everyone was drinking but me. I really wanted something, too.I enjoyed being there with my favorite Sorors (and Regine). Ranada my fav prophyte, Keysha my friend, Jameka my homegirl, and Roz my alter ego. They are the best. I have really enjoyed being here. I am so not ready to leave. It was a nice trip though. These young ladies are so unique and so special. The neosoul night was good too. Most of the entertainers ( i guess thats what u call 'em) did extremely well. It wasn't like "ooh, she can sing." It was more like, "damn, that girl can sang." This one chick sang "As We Lay" and as bad as hate to admit it, it really hit home. I have always listened to that song and enjoyed it, but now I really see where she is coming from. Yes, KH. TISS-TISS.
What I really enjoyed was examining the paintings on the wall and listening to what everyone else thought. It was abstract and you could basically take what you wanted to from it. There was one where I saw womanism (not feminism), Roz saw fertility, Keysh saw ovaries, and Ranada saw an hour glass. I can't remember what Jameka saw. Anyway, all of it had to do with the woman. The hour glass could be a stretch but maybe that was a woman's shape. Just throwing that out there. I think it's cool how all of us saw different things, but all interrelated. That's amazing. Then there was another one that Keysha and Ranada saw sex, but I saw romance. I saw candles and a rose. There was another one that was just blatantly a tear drop falling from an eye. I saw pain, Roz saw sorrow. Not much difference, but difference.
There was one picture that I was just fascinated with. I wish I could hang it in my house. I kept finding myself staring at it. I saw a man and woman. Everyone else saw stuff like blood, fire, and a volcanoe. Initially, I just saw a man and a woman. Everytime I looked at it, I saw something else. It was always a man and woman, but each time, a little more detail. Eventually, the final picture was a man and woman kissing, her arms out to him in surrender. There was a line going directly between their lips. At the top of the painting it was just a swiggly line, but if you followed it down, it went directly between their lips. A line of separation. Then I saw the blood. It was a big splash of blood on his face. There was blood was behind her. There were two red swiggly lines behind her. When I first noticed them, I thought cry me a river but the lines were red. Why red? Red can symbolize a lot of things, but all I got out of that was pain. I really wish I could hang that painting in my house. If I took Roz as seriously as I should, I would tell her and see what she thought, but everytime she talks about psychology I laugh. I believe she knows what she is talking about; it's just funny coming from Roz. I pretty much know why I saw what I saw though.
I have enjoyed Atlanta. I saw a few homeless people, but none of them scared me. Homeless people are my biggest fear. It wasn't bad though.

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Wednesday, March 10, 2004

I've been meaning to do this

I am enjoying Atlanta. I have made up my mind that Ruth Simmons is a member of Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Incorporated. There is no way she would have pledged DST and accepted honorary membership into AKA. Roz brought back thin crust pizza. YUCK but I got over it. Ranada took us to this club called Havana. The music was good; the crowd was thick. I prolly would have enjoyed it hadn't I been so sleepy. The only bad thing was that I surrounded by mini-mes. MJG was there. 8-ball was too supposedly, but I didn't see him.
Yesterday we went to this place called This Is It, which serves Soul Food. It was so good. We talked about the food for about 15 minutes. We prolly wouldn't have stopped if the prophet didn't come tell Roz to use her singing talent, which none of us has been frortunate to experience, for the Lord. Then we went to see Jameka's brother, who is superfine. He is so fine. And cute. Then we went to the Underground and got the cutest hats. Keysha's is the cutest. They are all cute though, just in different ways. Then we went to Jameka's brothers house. It is so nice. There is no way you would believe a guy decorated it. All of the decor was like a cream color. It was so nice. He had real plants and just exotic pics everywhere. It was just nice. The apts here are so much better than the ones in Jxn. Then we went to visit some friends from school. It was ok I guess. It was like being at Jameka's without the drama and ghettoisms.
This morning Roz cooked breakfast. (Yesterday I burned the pancakes!) It took them so long to get dressed. I know Keysha was getting mad bc I was and I have more patience than she does. It was taking them a long time. Now we are still waiting. Keysh ironed my pants and the iron got stuck. She thinks I don't know. There isn't an iron print (so they are still wearable) but I see where the iron got stuck. I don't know what we are going to do today. Tonight we are going to a poetry night. Those are always good. It seems like all of the good stuff will happen when we leave. Oh well. Birmingham should be nice. Jameka's brother is trying to find us another room. I hope so. I really hope so. We should have fun though.

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Monday, March 08, 2004

Excited

I am in Atlanta. I am too excited. My line sisters and I have been traveling for about 7 hours. We had good conversation. It's amazing what people know. It's even funnier how a name gets associated with different personality traits and odds are, it's true. I am starving. Roz and Ranada went to Pizza Hut because we are really on a budget. I slept so well at home. I had so much fun with my neice. She is really growing up. We went to Ruby Tuesday Saturday. I love that little girl. My nehew was Christened yesterday. He looked so handsome, even though he is only a few months old. My brother was tripping because he had to wear a "dress." He was so handsome. Afterwards we went went out to eat. I ran into this girl I was really close to in high school. We kinda just fell off. She started doing things I wasn't to fond of and we just distanced ourselves. I think she has calmed down now though. I hope so because she really is one of the good girls.
(Notice how my thoughts keep jumping from one place to another.)
The plan was to go to Great America. Not gonna happen. They are closed through the week. Prolly bc of the weather. It's ok though bc we are in Atlanta. There is plenty to do. Ranada and Roz are back. It's time to eat. I am so hungry. I will post again after I eat and look up on Ruth Simmons.

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Wednesday, March 03, 2004

Another one

1. Plan B:: don't have one
   
2. Seattle:: washington
   
3. The lady wore:: a red dress
   
4. Upsetting:: me constantly
   
5. Tampon:: tampax
   
6. Celebrity:: janet
   
7. Baja:: short
   
8. 64:: 69
   
9. RGB:: baseball
   
10. Milkshake::brings all the boys to the yard
    

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1. Hollywood:: Star
   
2. Censor:: everything
   
3. Nascar:: race
   
4. Lube:: jiffy
   
5. Mortgage::payment
   
6. Freedom:: ring
   
7. Champion:: rocky
   
8. Reality TV:: real world
   
9. New York:: city here i come
   
10. Tease:: hair
    

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For some reason I have not wanted to be bothered these past few days. It seems like every little thing gets on my nerves. I can be in the best mood one minute then about thirty minutes later I am pissed off. Then when I do want people around it seems like I can only handle one person at a time. Today I told someone I hadn't seen them in a while and she asked me to go to dinner with her. I said sure because at the moment I wanted to go, but when the time came to go, I didn't want to be bothered. It got worst when this other girl sat at the table. I was sitting there with KH about to enjoy a conversation. I just knew it was going to be a good conversation. Then she sat down. I wanted to tell her she couldn't sit there, but I just couldn't do it. Then the girl I told I would eat dinner with her came. Remember, I didn't want to be bothered. (I should have just told her no so it's my fault.) The worst was KH got up and left. I was so mad at her. I did not want them there and I definitely didn't want to be there by myself. I like one of the girls, but today just was not the day. Something is wrong with me. Roz said I need some meat. She's so silly. I think I need a good stiff drink. I can't though because I gave up alcohol for Lent. I also think I need a massage but there isn't anyone around I would feel comfortable with letting them touch me. Guys tend to think you want something extra when you ask for a massage. Maybe I need a really hot shower. I will feel so much better when I go home and get my hair done. I like getting my hair washed. It is so theraputic. Typing this was, too. I think I just need to get away. When I go home I am not going to call anyone. I am taking the entire weekend to do Ashley things. Maybe I will finish that book I started on the airplane, which by the way was not good. Maybe the change of scenery will help. I don't know. I just am not up to dealing with people, especially since KH said I am rude. I really didn't know I was. Well, I kinda knew, but to hear from someone else solidifies it.
I am finished with midterms, so that is a plus. Dr. Glenn's test really wasn't that hard. Actually, I studied. It was just what she said it would be though. I forgot to get her to sign my paper to excuse my absence from Brown. I enjoyed African American History today. We talked about slavery in Va, Md, and the Carolinas.
I need someone to massage my scalp. I really need someone to scratch it, but people think that is nasty so I won't ask anyone. If I was at home, my sister would do it. I'm going to call her tonight. My brother's wisdom teeth are coming in and he swears he is going to die. Shacora is going to Chicago for Spring Break. I really like that little girl. She's such a sweetie. I cannot wait to go to Atlanta. Someone backed out and I am kinda glad. Is that mean? I just didn't want to hear her whine all the time. She aggravates me. (I guess I shouldn't say that since I'm whining now) Anyway, KH whines enough for everyone. ;) We have 5 peeps in our room. That is good because the rate is cheaper, but I don't know how we are going to manage getting dressed in the mornings. I think it will be fun though.
You know what, writing in this thing helped boost my spirits. Reading about the insurance and the psuedo-retarded man had me dying. Some people. I guess I will check e-mail and finish reading those blogs. I hope everyone has a beautiful day and remember that in spite of everything, you are blessed.

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Tuesday, March 02, 2004

Rambling

I really have not felt like writing in this thing. It makes me think too much about things I don't want to think about. This time, nothing is on my mind. I just finished typing this paper for my midterm. Mrs. Freeman is leaving. She said she would continue working on my senior paper, but I am not really sure about that. I asked someone else and she said yes. It's really sad that my advisor is not my reader, but he is just not reliable. I don't think he is knowledgable about the content of my paper anyway. Actually, there aren't too many things I think he is knowledgable about. That's another post in itself.
***KH is over here talking to herself****
I'm going to Shakespeare today and actually looking forward to it. I am starting to enjoy that class. Who would have thunk it? ;) I noticed today that one of my professors, that I really like, has a slight stinch. He always finds himself right in my face. I like him though. I thought he was going to be mad because I didn't do what he asked me to while in RI, but he understood. I really didn't have time.
I am beginning to decifer who I think will be permanent friends. For some reason, I have started becoming very observant and learning when to talk and when to listen.
I have to go to Muriel's today to check on some t-shirts. I'm going with Jameka, so that should be cool. We just added some more people to our room for regionals. Hallelujah. It cut the price in half. I like my roommates. I think we are going to have fun. I'm looking forward to two activities in particular, but I am sure overall it will be a learning experience. It's my first and last opportunity to attend as an undergrad, so I am thrilled.
I am about to be late for class.

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Monday, March 01, 2004

?????????

My mind is in so many places. I need to take the Praxis. I really don't feel like it. I am going to take it Monday when I get back from Spring Break. I hope I pass because if not that will only make it worse. I have to go meet Mr. Wynter to get the names of two new students who need tutoring. I am going to do it because I need the money. I talked to Mr. A#$hole. He hasn't admitted anything, but that is ok because I am over it. Mr. Interesting is slowly becoming Mr. Boring. Martha Stewart closing arguements are tomorrow, I think. Kobe's "accuser" is ready to take the stand. Well, I don't know if she is ready, but she will. French and US troops have landed in Port au Prince. I really hope this political uprest ends. I wish they could solve their problem without outsiders, however it doesn't seem feasible (sp?). I have to do some office hours for TAMS. I hate doing those things. I really want to drop out of it, but I decided to join TAMS. They didn't ask me, so I will stick to it. I have to go get my clearance form for graduation. I have an interview Wednesday at 8:30. I'm a little nervous about that. I am finally going to schedule an eye exam for contacts. I think I will go Friday morning before class. Oh yeah, the police have a suspect in the Hargon case. It seems like an adopted cousin got enraged because his adopted father didn't leave anything to him in his will. He took it out on them because the land was left to them. There are some other things on my mind, but I am not up to talking about them.

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