Incidents in the life of.....

Monday, August 30, 2004

Patience

Patience is a virtue. If that is the only vitue, I will never be a virtuous woman. Everyone keeps telling me I need to have patience with this certain someone. They are probably right, but patience is not my forte. I want things to happen my way, on my time. It's not happening. I don't understand why this certain person does what is done. I'm not really getting mixed signals. I guess it is what it is. I just want a little more. Maybe not a little, maybe a lot. I do agree with everyone though. I am just having a hard time accepting it. I'm trying to relax and go with the flow, but I seem to be swiming upstream. Perhaps, I should stop swimming and just float. That is the logical thing to do, but being a creature governed by emotion rather than reason, it's really difficult. Well, well, well, he comes the one whose mission in life is to teach me patience....
Now, there's another person that is wearing patience thinner. I know it's not my job to understand why people do the things they do. I am merely to be there after they make big mistakes. That I can handle. Yet, I am tired of the same mistakes with the same person. It never gets better, only worse. As of late, there has been a physical altercation. That hits too close to home, for obvious reasons. I have seen all of this before and I know it's only going to get worse. Either you walk away or someone gets killed. It's black and white, no room for gray. I tried to ignore the fact that this person had "prior engagements," but even that gets a little difficult when there is only one roof. On top of that, money is an issue. You shouldn't have to pay for someone all the time. I don't care if it's a friend, boyfriend, siter, or brother. You definitely shouldn't have to pay if the person makes more money than you. To top it all off, this person has the nerve to be jealous. So, I don't understand why someone would subject themselves to that. I guess we all make dumb mistakes. Lord knows, I have made my share and then some.

Posted by Nik :: 8/30/2004 :: 1 Comments: