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Monday, July 12, 2004

Guess Who's Back

Man, I forgot I had a blog. That's sad huh? I guess I should update everyone on my latet happenings. I interviewed in two more cities, Coldwater and Greenwood. I got the job in Greenwood, but Coldwater is still in the air. I think I want to get that one more so to keep my ego in place. I don't know how I would respond if didn't get it. The man in Yazoo called again today. He wants me bad. I used to want Yazoo equally bad, but now I am not so sure. I have no idea where I am going. I just don't know. This would be so much easier had I not applied for all of these positions. I think I am going to put them all in a hat and just pull. J/k. I am going to think it about it. I must reach a decision soon bc school is about to start. I started work at Cingular today. It was so boring. This girl I went to high school with came and sat next to me. We just started talking like old friends. She used to be pretty cool, but as soon as Brandon and I broke up she slept with him and that did not sit too well with me. So I stopped talking to her. (It was high school; give me a break.) Now I am older and wiser and really just do not care. I also realize that there is no reason to hold a grudge. Ir hurts the person holding the grudge a whole lot more than the person he or she is holding it against. So that is that. I used to look up to this girl in high school. In high school, I thought whites were naturally smarter than blacks. I was pretty smart and she was smarter than me, so I just thought she was brilliant. Now, she has two children and two baby daddies and no degree. She fell off for a minute and I was disgusted with her, but I just think she is like everyone else in this small town. She said her little girl's daddy is a hoe and it won't last long, yet she is still with him. WTH? I think she will wake up, it just might take a minute. I talked to my step-sister today and she broke up with her son's father. That's a good thing. He wasn't violent or anything; they just weren't headed in the same direction. I guess they just grew apart. She sounds happy, but I know that can be misleading. I believe her though. She said she was working on self and that is a good thing. I admire that. I still talk to Mr. Interesting and he is going through a whole lot. He says he's working on himself too, but I think it's just a phase.
Me, I am working on me. I am trying to right all of my wrongs. I made a vow not to have sex for six months. One down, five to go. Last time, I said 3 months, so now I am doubling it. I think I could rid myslef of a lot of problems if I take sex out of it. I have a lot more to say but my mom keeps calling my name, so I will have to post later.
Until next time....

Posted by Nik :: 7/12/2004 :: 3 Comments: