Incidents in the life of.....

Monday, March 29, 2004

Saturday

I woke up early for some reason. I cleaned up. I just felt like cleaning. After I finished I went to sleep. My momma came in my room and said, Nik. Get up. I'm looking at her like why. She said Larry died. I jumped up and got dressed. My clothes were already ironed. I did that before I went to sleep. So I am getting dressed and she says where are you going. I tell her to the hospital. She tells me to calm down and she is going too. So we go to the hospital and I see all these people in the hall just crying. I have no idea what to say. I'm just standing there looking stupid. I don't want to be here anymore. The hospital is making me think about my grandma, even though she was at Faye's when she died. My mom walks me around the corner to another waiting room. Sheree and Kathy are already there. They tell us he isn't dead, just brain dead. His mom is going to take him off life support but she wants everyone to get a chance to see him. My mom asks me if I want to go see him. When I left my house, I thought I did, but standing there then I didn't. I told her no. So we were just sitting there with Kathy and Ree. Talking to them cleared a lot of things up. I was told there were 2 people in the car, but there were actually three. Larry was in the backseat. There was a driver and a passenger. The passenger is fine because when the car started to flip, he balled up on the floor under the dashboard. That was smart but I don't know how many people would have thought to do it. The driver is still in the hospital, but Larry is gone. It was just so senseless. He's dead for simply being in the wrong place at the wrong time. He had nothing to do with the way the boy was driving. He didn't have a say in the matter, now he is dead due to someone else's negligence. And the guy will be ok. He is in the hospital, but he will be fine. He is being charged with manslaughter. I don't really know how I feel about that. I realize someone is dead, but the boy didn't mean to kill him. That was his friend. I understand it could have been avoided, but to know your friend is dead and it is your fault seems like enough punishment to me. I don't know if I want the dude to go to jail, but it really is his fault. It just would have been have been easier to accept if he was the one driving. Then I could say, why was Larry being so careless. Knowing he was in the back only leads me to why was Larry in the car with him. The answer is simple. Because that was his friend. That's what we do. I just wish the outcome was different, but God has a master plan. I will accept it.
When I saw Larry's sister, she looked fine. She is about 13 and she looked like she didn't really understand that her brother was dead. Maybe because at this point he was still breathing. She was just watching cartoons and laughing, like any saturday morning. She was playing with one of the other children there. Maybe it was her cousin or something. I hope she is ok. I didn't see his mom. Maybe she was in the room with him or something. I feel the worst for her. I can't even imagine what it is like to have to bury your child, your oldest child, your only son. I pray for her stregnth. I pray for that dude too. He is probably going to jail. Sometimes, you just have to take things in stride, even though you don't understand them.

Posted by Nik :: 3/29/2004 :: 0 Comments: