Incidents in the life of.....

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

Bothered

For some reason I have not wanted to be bothered these past few days. It seems like every little thing gets on my nerves. I can be in the best mood one minute then about thirty minutes later I am pissed off. Then when I do want people around it seems like I can only handle one person at a time. Today I told someone I hadn't seen them in a while and she asked me to go to dinner with her. I said sure because at the moment I wanted to go, but when the time came to go, I didn't want to be bothered. It got worst when this other girl sat at the table. I was sitting there with KH about to enjoy a conversation. I just knew it was going to be a good conversation. Then she sat down. I wanted to tell her she couldn't sit there, but I just couldn't do it. Then the girl I told I would eat dinner with her came. Remember, I didn't want to be bothered. (I should have just told her no so it's my fault.) The worst was KH got up and left. I was so mad at her. I did not want them there and I definitely didn't want to be there by myself. I like one of the girls, but today just was not the day. Something is wrong with me. Roz said I need some meat. She's so silly. I think I need a good stiff drink. I can't though because I gave up alcohol for Lent. I also think I need a massage but there isn't anyone around I would feel comfortable with letting them touch me. Guys tend to think you want something extra when you ask for a massage. Maybe I need a really hot shower. I will feel so much better when I go home and get my hair done. I like getting my hair washed. It is so theraputic. Typing this was, too. I think I just need to get away. When I go home I am not going to call anyone. I am taking the entire weekend to do Ashley things. Maybe I will finish that book I started on the airplane, which by the way was not good. Maybe the change of scenery will help. I don't know. I just am not up to dealing with people, especially since KH said I am rude. I really didn't know I was. Well, I kinda knew, but to hear from someone else solidifies it.
I am finished with midterms, so that is a plus. Dr. Glenn's test really wasn't that hard. Actually, I studied. It was just what she said it would be though. I forgot to get her to sign my paper to excuse my absence from Brown. I enjoyed African American History today. We talked about slavery in Va, Md, and the Carolinas.
I need someone to massage my scalp. I really need someone to scratch it, but people think that is nasty so I won't ask anyone. If I was at home, my sister would do it. I'm going to call her tonight. My brother's wisdom teeth are coming in and he swears he is going to die. Shacora is going to Chicago for Spring Break. I really like that little girl. She's such a sweetie. I cannot wait to go to Atlanta. Someone backed out and I am kinda glad. Is that mean? I just didn't want to hear her whine all the time. She aggravates me. (I guess I shouldn't say that since I'm whining now) Anyway, KH whines enough for everyone. ;) We have 5 peeps in our room. That is good because the rate is cheaper, but I don't know how we are going to manage getting dressed in the mornings. I think it will be fun though.
You know what, writing in this thing helped boost my spirits. Reading about the insurance and the psuedo-retarded man had me dying. Some people. I guess I will check e-mail and finish reading those blogs. I hope everyone has a beautiful day and remember that in spite of everything, you are blessed.

Posted by Nik :: 3/03/2004 :: 0 Comments: